Wednesday, October 19, 2016

Mis[s] placed value

We are all on a roller coaster of life.

Some people are in the front enjoying every moment, taking in everything right at the beginning. Sometimes unaware of their surroundings and worries of others. They are the first ones to see what is coming up next, they are the ones who will influence the others behind them, and they are the ones who finish first.  

Then you have the middle guy, the protected, well thought out ones who make sure there is always just enough room in life to keep them safe. The middle ones may have the advantage of being surrounded but they do not always choose wisely who they surround themselves with. 

Last but not least, you have the end. The people who either were late for the ride, want to get on faster because everyone who is "brave" is in the front row line or they just like to sit back and have the last laugh. These people get to see things on the bigger scale, they may be the last row but they are able to view the ride completely. They get to observe the other peoples reactions. They get to be the last ones off the ride. 

Where do you sit on this roller coaster called life. Do you lead by example? Do you surround yourself with people who are uplifting and encouraging? Do you rely on people more than on God? Do you trust in Jesus and ALL of His promises? Do you care that your words affect others and can either bless them or hurt them? 

When I was about ten or eleven I went on the biggest, fastest and scariest ride called "Desperado" out in Nevada. This giant rollercoaster was my worst nightmare. After being assured that it would be "fun", I cautiously approached the event that would forever change my life. My brothers sat right next to me in the front row of this massive, insanely fast contraption. I really wanted to back out and just sit on the side lines as my family partook of this crazy act. But no, I joined them. I took a seat. Buckled up and screamed/prayed. The ride started and all I remember hearing was to "keep my eyes open, trust me, its fun". Finally towards the end of the ride I bravely opened my eyes. I stopped screaming for no reason and realized how pretty the view was from the top. Once I set aside the irrational fears of anything bad happening to me, I thoroughly enjoyed the ride. And now I absolutely love roller coasters. The bigger the better. The faster the better. I love the rush of being scared and excited at the same time.

I believe that we are called as Christians to keep our eyes on Jesus, to trust Him and live out the example of Jesus as loving others.

So often, my seat of choice in life usually is the middle. I like to be surrounded by some would call "cushion", the padding that protects me and allows the rough times to hurt just a little less. Now, I can assure you that this cushion that I've created or rather imagined in my head has been a burden. It really is no fun walking around in life and always afraid of what could happen next. I mean I'm not always fearful just when it comes to radically relying fully on God. I guess this would be considered untrusting of me to walk the life of a believer but be scared. But, there are many people in the bible who were terrified, for legitimate reasons. The ones who concurred that fear, and rose to the calling, all had their eyes on Jesus. A place I so desire to be.

Just this past weekend I was able to visit one of my former high school students that is attending bible college. I was so blown away of the absolute wisdom that poured out of her. A sense of pride and blessing filled my heart to the brim of how Jesus loves His children and He has us right where we are needed. She reminded me that although Peter was scared, he chose to walk to Jesus. Peter was for that moment in complete reliance on God, His eyes stayed on Jesus, which kept him above water.

I so desire to be in the uncomplicated, undeserved, untarnished, unshakable, unwavering presence of God, that the whole world and all of its issues of sin and death cannot compare to the love of God.

It really is all about Perspective. Do you have your eyes on Jesus or are you so involved with yourself that you have started sinking. A practical way to not sink is to be ready in and out of season with the knowledge of scripture. To dwell on His promises and blessings.

As I sit here drinking from my "give me Jesus" mug and reading my daily light for October 19th, I am reminded that to truly be filled, to truly be protected and unafraid is to have that desire of Jesus, that HE is enough.

"The Lord will be your confidence, and will keep your foot from being caught" Proverbs 3:26

To be like Jesus, is to love like Him, to find your value, your hope, your rest, your identity, your everything is to be in Him. Is it easy to not listen to the enemy? No, but its worth it. This life is a
fight , we have a victor and His name is Jesus. Can you just take a minute and surrender your day. Can you with a full breathe just take in that today is a new day, filled with grace and mercy. A brand new day that is not promised or deserved. We have been given this gift of life. But I tend to take each day and live it with carried weight of myself. I'm tired. I need to remind myself that this is a new day.

Are you ready to start thanking Jesus for this day, for the trials because He is faithful to meet you. Thank Him for the tears and the heartaches because He is in the midst of your pain, He intercedes for us and keeps our tears. Can we start to Thank Him for simply loving us. And can we start living a life that shows we are LOVED by the Creator of the universe.

"Looking to JESUS, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy(that is you and me) that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God" Hebrews 12:2

The fact is that no one deserves His love, but at the cost of the cross we can partake in His goodness. I am not perfect, I am not good, I am not lovely or kind, I am not precious, I am not valuable, I am not of any worth, I am a sinner in need of a Savior. Once I realize that and walk cleansed and redeemed, that is when my identity changes. In Jesus, I am perfected, I am good, I am lovely, I am precious and I am valued.

This is a daily reliance and view that I cannot attain my salvation, but only receive it. And you have that chance as well. You can choose to walk the rest of this gift of life in pain, sorrow, heartache alone. Or you can walk in peace that passes all understanding, confidence in who He has made you and called you to be, and the assurance that you are LOVED.  It's just that simple act of confession and then the act of profession. Confess that you need a Savior, asking for forgiveness and then walking in a way that is pleasing to God. Professing that He is Lord of all.

Praying that whoever is reading this would rest in Jesus and desire Him completely. Because you are valued and loved.

"For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whosoever would believe in Him, should not perish but have everlasting life.


Tuesday, October 04, 2016


Band-aids, thats my season right now.

Let me explain.

Last week I was changing around the pictures in the store at my work just to keep it looking fresh and a picture scrapped my arm.  Which became a scab and it wasn't till 3 days later that i decided to put neosporin (thank you siri for helping me with the spelling) on it. I had thought about putting a bandaid on it but was sure that it would heal fine without one. I'm pretty sure this will turn into a scar. When I was younger I loved when I got a scar because than I could look back and tell a story of how I got it. But getting older I realize that scars are not as cool and less is more. So anyway...sometimes in life we are very quick to put a bandaid on a wound and allow the bandaid to protect and give time for healing and other times we tend to think so less of that bandaid that the wound can actually get worse. The truth is if you are not taking care of your body,  using a bandaid or not could both cause great issues down the line. Either you use the bandaid and leave it on too long not allowing your skin to breathe or you completely ignore the issue and it does not get the protection it needs.

I have misused the bandaids. For me lets just say that the bandaid is my blanket of comfort. If the rotten wound is covered then no will know that its there. cause all bandaids are invisible. (insert sarcastic slightly uncomfortable laugh) hahaha.

What are my bandaids you might be wondering...well as of now they are my hidden "talents" that  have remained buried for a long time. Ever since I was a very little girl, I have loved music. I grew up with my mom putting on WEE Sing cassette tapes and having the radio be apart of my morning routine. I loved playing around with my portable Karaoke Machine and mimicking the great singers I longed to be like someday. I loved being in children's choir at my church and singing in the car rides with mom as she would take me to school. I had the influence of Frank Sinatra from my Nana, the influence of the amazing and talented Elton John from my dad, the gorgeous voices of Whitney Houston, Lauren Hill, Celine Dion, Boyz II Men and then life changing, awestruck worship from church. I joined choir in the 6th grade but didn't stick with it cause I want to try other things. My senior year of high school I joined choir again and loved every moment of it. I was for a brief time on a worship team for the Singles Ministry that my mom was serving in. But even though I am undeniably captivated by music, that would be that last thing I would mention is one of my talents. I love to sing, like a lot. And someday would love to use that for the Lord. When I choose to walk in His faithfulness, It is easier to be obedient in His guidance.

"Commit your work to the Lord, and your plans will be established" Proverbs 16:3

And just when I start to doubt, He gives me His word for comfort.

"For you shall go out in joy and be led forth in peace; the mountains and the hills before you shall break forth into singing, and all the trees of the field shall clap their hands" Isaiah 55:12

This is a promise. Jesus goes before us and behind us in whatever we are facing. The biggest lie that I fall for all the time is that i am alone. That there is no one who knows what I'm going thru, but the greatest truth is that God loves you, He is for you and not against you, to bring you a future and a hope.

Do you ever crave pizza and than think of just getting a whole pizza for yourself because even though you might not finish that whole pizza that fact is you just don't want to share. Well....thats me. I've been hoarding pizzas and forgetting about them as the rot in the corner of my heart. I'm warning you btw if you haven't noticed but I'm a deep thinker and not by choice. So the cat is out of the bag. And I'm really terrified. But as my brother so lovingly encouraged me, to be excited instead of afraid. I hope your not lost with my crazy thinking.

The past few Sunday's we have been going through the topic of Spiritual Gifts which has been heavy on my heart and super encouraging as the Pastor reminded us that we all have a function in the body of Christ. And when the body of Christ is strengthened, it will be more effective.

I was recently instructed by my friend to listen to a message on Fear, cause I'm really good at it. pero like I am. And it was called Fear: Face, Chase, Embrace by Ben Courson. (you should listen to it) Such a simple message but so profound because the basic break down was exactly what I needed to hear to kinda make sense of where I put my trust, how I view God and how I need to embrace the fear. A few of his points that I loved were, " he that fears is not made perfect in love", "my past supply ain't my last supply", "great things never come from the comfort zones", "how you perceive God dictates how you receive from God" and "do the thing that scares you the most". Easier said than done, but definitely something to aware of.

"I will not boast in anything, no gift, no power no wisdom, but I will boast in Jesus Christ, His death and resurrection. "

I'm not sharing this because I will gain anything out of it other than the hope that this ministers to someone who is unsure of their gifts or callings. As the Lord continues to reveal the need for my bandaids to be removed, I'm resting in the fact that His timing is perfect, perfect love casts out all fear and Jesus is good all the time.

Provoking thought: If you are hiding your gift then how are you allowing the opportunity for God to be glorified? Is your fear holding you back from giving those gifts back to God? I can only imagine being one of those wise men and knowing that Jesus the Savior was coming; yet being so afraid of camels that it prevented me from dwelling with the newborn King.

So as I take on the challenge of being obedient, I challenge you to press on and follow the Lord's leading. Heres to embracing my fears and watching how God is going to heal me as the band-aids are removed.

Oh Lord, keep me humble, teachable, moldable and dwelling in your goodness. God be glorified.

-Mis out.