Thursday, November 20, 2014


to expect: to think that something will probably or certainly happen.

I have the tendency to expect. I have the tendency to expect good and bad. And when I place my expectancy on a definite event that will surely happen, I place myself in the "oh no, I'm going to be disappointed" state of mind. This sadly happens often. For instance tonight. I left church tonight knowing that I would have to search for a parking spot..I wasn't expecting to find a spot so soon, but I did. And then I met up with a few friends and ventured over to get some Ice Cream from the oh so mostly faithful McDonald's only to find out that the ice cream machine is broken, producing a very sad face. I expected to get some yummy ice cream only to find out that there was no way I would get any at all. That is just a physical expectancy. But the spiritual expectancy is so much greater. What am I expecting from God?

How many times do I sit down, open my bible and expect God to speak to me....sadly not often enough.

And then I thought....cause I love to think and over think...its just what I do. I thought about how I can always count on Jesus, knowing that He will never disappoint, never come short of perfection and refining. I can surely always expect great and good things from my God. We have verses in the bible that promise that He will never leave us or forsake us. Yet we doubt His record of faithfulness. But is it that He fails us or we have a wrong perspective of expectancy?

Do I set God up to fail me? Do I ask for things while knowing that if He is a good God, He would never supply my want? Do I expect to be disappointed?


I expect God who never fails, never stops loving me, never gives up on me, never stopped seeking me, to fail me. Why cause my perspective is not fair. My expectancy is not that He will fail me, its that I will fail Him.

Do you ever find yourself in situations where you would rather quit or walk away because you just know that you will fail? If I didn't fail so much in life, I don't think I would need a reason to continue to get up each time and try harder.

Failing isn't necessarily bad, its how you treat the failing part. Instead of always having this mind set that I will be disappointed, I need to have the mind set that I can trust and expect that God will come through. Tonight my friend pointed out that my perspective needs to change and I need to ask God to change it. Its hard sometimes asking God to change just means that hardship will take place, it won't be easy but it will be good.

Many times I recognize that God is big and able to do more than I could ask or think...many times I say this and pray this because I have been told that He is able, I have seen first hand God do amazing big things in my life and those around me. But many times this saying becomes just a saying and not a belief.

Tonight I was speaking with a high school student and she was sharing how the Lord spoke to her about how she viewed people. She was being challenged to a set apart walk with God. Its easy to get comfortable of not getting challenged in your walk with Jesus.

If I am to expect anything, this should be it...

"as it is my eager expectation and hope that I will not be at all ashamed, but that with full courage now as always Christ will be honored in my body, whether by life or by death." 
Philippians 1:20

IF our expectancy is on the faithful promises of God, why should we ever doubt. Why should we wonder if things will go our way. 

"If God is for us, who can be against us? " 
Romans 8:31

If we continually put our hope, trust and love in God, than we are less likely to fall into the trap of disappointment. 

"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare
 and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope" 
Jeremiah 29:11

This truth and promise that God has plans for me that are beyond my comprehension. They are far beyond my expectation, I rest knowing He is able. He is faithful. He, no matter what, is worthy of my praise. I am prone to seek man for comfort, for acceptance, for love. I am prone to expect rejection and nonacceptance. 
Tonight at church the pastor who was sharing spoke of a place he recently heard of that provides professional cuddlers. My thought at first was why would someone pay for that and how creepy it would be. Which is weirder, the person who requests to be cuddled or the person who provides the cuddling? We all desire acceptance and comfort, love and hope. But the only place searching and resting in, is the arms of the everlasting God. 

The only word that keeps repeating itself over and over is expectancy. This is such a gut wrenching reminder to live an expectant life in Jesus. We are to look to Him and be satisfied. 
As that one worship song that always gets me....
 " I am satisfied in you God, I will abide in You, in the vine" 


Monday, November 03, 2014


My life began twenty-seven years ago at 8:03pm on Tuesday, November 3rd, 1987. 
Melissa Ashley Leveck. Parents, Henry and Cynthia, brothers Justin and Jameson.

And its been such an adventure :)

 I am excited for the journey this next year will bring and the growth that will take place. My desire this year is to live to the utmost. I want to experience His love and adventure further in my walk with Him. 

I have been so blessed by this year alone. Last year in the end of September I ventured with one of my good friends to New Jersey, we traveled 11 states. I consumed my first legit won't be my last for sure. I went to New York, stood at the top of the Empire State building. Fulfilled a dream that I've had for so long to see a Broadway show in the city. I had the best slice of pizza from the underground subway in NY. I was stretched but it was worth it. I met amazing people and was blessed to know that my friend would be in some good hands. :) In December, I wrote a song. In January, I sold my car. And for 8 long months I walked, rode my bike and relied on friends and family to take me places. I was stretched but it was worth it.

Summer was filled with so much travel.In one week alone I traveled with one friend to Nor Cal to visit our bff, see where she grew up, visit the state capitol and feed chickens :) Then came home to take a very long venture overnight to see the Grand Canyon sunset, drive thru desert upon desert, saw pretty places in Arizona that I never knew existed and I learned how to drive a tractor all in less than 3 days. that added 3 more states to my list. and now I have traveled 15 states so far and I'm not done yet :)  In Septemeber the Lord blessed me with a car. A great car. A newer car as in 2010....not 1994. I got my nose pierced and finally dyed my hair red. I have seen lots of change. 

I have seen friends move, have babies, get new jobs, take steps of faith and be a constant example of Jesus. I have gone to funerals and wept, graduations and celebrated the amazing accomplishments that my friends have made, goodbye parties for those who were moving on. I have struggled with my relationship with Jesus, and I have grown. I have been stretched in so many ways but also met by Jesus in more ways than I deserve. 

I am blessed to have family, friends, co-workers, peers and high school students whom I love and love me. I am blessed to know that I am loved. I am cherished and I am uniquely made. 

So 27 years on this earth. I feel like I have learned so much and so little all at the same time. The more I serve in ministry the more I realize how little I really know. The more I am stretched the more I realize just how little I've come but how far Jesus wants to take me. I have been reminded to not compare myself with others, live life to the utmost and seek His joy that is greater than happiness. Travel, eat well and laugh a whole lot. Seek Jesus and seek to be sought by Him. I have learned that rawness is genuine and we all desire to see that in Jesus and in others. 

I have also learned that the beat goes keep going and don't stop :) 

p.s. thanks for reading. 

Friday, July 25, 2014

The Danger Zone

As I was pondering my relationships with friends, family and God... I noticed that the longer I know you the more comfortable I become. In my state of comfort I tend to be lazy, relaxed and unaware of my ill actions if it be not caring how I dress at home or how I consume horrible amounts of carbs because its "comforting". So my excuse for being lazy in friendships, lack of a healthy devotional life,home and food habits can be explained by one word. This can be a dangerous position.

With my old friends I tend to be less caring of making sure they accept me and also less caring in how I treat them. I figure they know me, I know them. So it is what it is. You just learn to deal with peoples actions because you love them.

My devotional life tends be a roller coaster of ups and downs. I am hardly consistent in giving my day to the Lord but very persistent to call on Him when things aren't going my way. It seems to be that my comfort level is at a good medium because I don't need to impress God and I surely don't need to go overboard on how I spend my time with Jesus...because He will understand how busy I am. I begin to make excuses for why I treat my friends, family and relationship with God due to the poor word comfort. I am guilty of being lazy and taking the drama free road. In fact I very much dislike drama all together...its fun to watch but that's about it.

And when I get home from a crazy filled day at work or church all I want to do is relax. And if I can't relax and just veg, my patience goes out the door. I can handle being patient at work but when I come home its the hardest thing to practice. Why? because I can. I'm comfortable enough to be irritated with my parents and know that I won't get a consequence. Many times I don't even realize how I am acting because when I'm in my comfort attitude I just don't care.

McDonald's ice cream cone, chocolate chip cookies ( the best btw) and fries are what I call my comfort food. They satisfy me when its hot, cold, raining, morning, noon and night. I love to delve into the yumminess. The food brings instant happiness and I don't feel bad at all that I consumed over 600 calories because its my comfort food.

Sometimes more often than not we use that word as an excuse a little too much to justify how we treat people, how we eat and how we live. And just because you are comforted by these things doesn't mean that others are. But this is where sacrifice comes into play.

I can think of many examples in my life and in the bible about comfort and sacrifice. These two don't make sense because together they require action. And when I am in my comfort zone the least thing I want to do is be active. Active means movement to possible unknowns. In that I am not always willing.

Just today in my stores children's section we were playing a movie and it was talking about the promise God gave Abraham. God had big plans for Abe and told him that he would be the father of many nations. So after doubt and fear, Abe and Sarah had a son. Down the road when Isaac was just a young man, God required a sacrifice from Abe. So Abe WILLINGLY was going to lay down his only son's life for the Lord. This sounds like a crazy thing but God was seeing how far Abe would go for Him. Maybe even to see how comfortable Abe was with God. You see this man knew that His God promised him many nations but He followed the Lord's direction anyway. God requires sacrifice. Not always in the way we are willing to give and or imagine.
Jesus became our ultimate sacrifice in the most uncomfortable ways. He endured pain that was unthinkable, torment and loneliness for the sake of love.

"From that time Jesus began to show his disciples that he must go to Jerusalem and suffer many things from the elders and chief priests and scribes, and be killed, and on the third day be raised." Matthew 16:21

Love made the lack of comfort and the ultimate sacrifice worth it all. And with sacrifice came blessings. Not only did God sacrifice His only son for our sins but gave us His Holy Spirit and an open relationship with Him. Jesus rose from the grave.

Recently I have had a hard time with understanding the line of comfort and sacrifice. How can I give up comfort without knowing that I'll be comforted. Jesus wants to be the ultimate comforter and if we are looking anywhere else to find it, we will be miserable. I don't want to be so comfortable in my tiny world that I can't see and experience the vastness of God. God asked many men to follow Him, He asked them to trust and follow. He asked them to deny all they had and follow after the unknown. He also promised them much. He promised life more abundant, more full and most satisfying.

How many times do we do things for people or God without a prize in mind? How many times are we guilty in our actions and lifestyles by treating the word comfort an excuse?  How often do we choose comfort over sacrifice?

Comfort- a state of physical ease and freedom from pain or constraint.

Sacrifice -an act of giving up something valued for the sake of something else 
regarded as more important or worthy.

I challenge you to be intentional in what you find comfort in and what areas the Lord is asking you to lay down. I encourage you to live every day in the peace that the Lord has amazingly awesome plans that will rock your comfort zone and teach you the meaning of sacrifice. Because of God's sacrifice we get the best comfort of all and that's a relationship with the creator and Savior of the universe. He will never disappoint or fail. For His love is everlasting and He never stops pouring out grace :) 

Sunday, July 13, 2014

a posted note

This past week has had its full of heart wrenching adventures. I have grieved for my brothers decisions and questioned the path and calling God has clearly given me. I have sought to hear from the Lord and in its stillness doubted the hope and wisdom of His voice. I have longed for something better and realized my view of God is determined on Jesus just being good enough. When really He should and always be ENOUGH.

I have set my mind not on things above but rather how far my hopes and dreams could travel without God leading them and being the center of them. I have trusted in my feelings and not in His best.

And when I really just want to be numb to it all the Lord helps me recall a word that He gave through a customer a few weeks ago about not compromising.

Jesus is enough. How many times will I have to fight with my flesh and be beaten down to fully grasp that. But how many times will God restore me and teach me and love on me till I grasp that.

Even when the fish do not enter into the net and I sit waiting for riches in men... Jesus joins me and brings life, brings provision, brings realization that apart from Him we can't sustain. I love that Peter was able to have a boat load of fish only when He surrendered to the Master's call. I need to be reminded of this. I need to daily surrender and place my trust in Him.

And when my heart is aching for life to be full, I just need to open my eyes.

"The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord, and HE delights in his way" Psalm 37:23

Saturday, April 19, 2014

Am I there yet?

How many of us just love the word yet?

Oh the food that your starving for isn't ready yet. And the book that you are anxiously awaiting to arrive from your purchase on Amazon is not here yet. And you are not old enough to get a license just YET.

Well, this past year and a half I have heard that word a little too much. Your not getting that car just yet. The timing isn't right to get married just yet. The Lord isn't done refining you just yet. Now it may sound like I am complaining and for the a long time I have had a certain bitterness to the whole wait, be patient and yet words. But one thing the Lord shows me over and over again in my distress and uncertainty is that I must come to the end of myself. YUP...not the easiest, since that would require an act of humbling. I must decrease so that He may increase. When we take up all the room for improvement with our complaints, negativity and self loathing we loose sight of the reason God has us here. We are being continually refined.
How do we stop the bitterness?  Simply to look to Jesus. So easy right. not.

Looking to Jesus to supply all of our needs should be really easy since He says He will take care of us. And after showing us sooooo many times in the bible with example after should be somewhat easy. Its not. Nor will it be...that's because we are in a...I am in a constant fight with my flesh and spirit.

And frankly this past week I have been defiant in my surrendering. See I know that the Lord will take care of me, that He will supply ALL of my needs and HE has got me. BUT. My doubting and disbelief in His power can lead to depression and the place of bitterness. When we are a constant fight with God....just know that you will never win.

"11 For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare[a] and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope."
Jeremiah 29:11

The Lord knows the plans that He has for us are GOOD. do you ? 

disbelief is lack of trust and faith. 

Surrendering can become the most uplifting a freeing experience. But you have to be at the end of yourself for God to fully bless you. He still blesses us even when we are blinded by our stupid fleshly desires. He will always bless but the riches will not be the same. 
I confess that sometimes...I enjoy being defiant. I enjoy whining and being dramatic....cause I wear this shirt that says "  I deserve it". I deserve the best of the best to my standards. And you know what if God gave me what I really deserved I would be on my knees every moment begging for forgivness and a changed attitude. But the Lord even in our hardness still bestows grace upon grace upon grace. I man look at Jacob in the OT who literally wrestled with God...he went in thinking he had it all together but ended up limping away because of his own pride. Sometimes, I am a Jacob.

I am a fool for ever thinking that my deepest aches can't be healed and my greatest desires are better than His. For He should be our greatest desire. And when we finally exalt Him to that rightful place in our lives...our desires will match His. 

I'm thankful that God is not done with me YET. 

"And I am sure(certain) of this, that HE who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ." Philippians 1:6

But lets not just strive to desire the best He has for us but also believe it. Many people deny there is a God simply cause they can't see it. They are blinded. And I know one of the things that holds me back from fully living a life sought after the Lord is my lack of belief. I doubt a lot. I have an obligation to put actions to my words and start standing in confidence that my Savior is real, that His love for me is true and that He is not done with me yet. 

""But he said, “Blessed rather are those who hear the word of God and keep it!”"" Luke 11:18

Don't dispair, don't let go of His promises. Cause they are many and glorious :) 

to you peace & joy, 

Thursday, February 27, 2014

drive thru style

As I roll up to the little box to order my food..."Hi...can you just give me a minute"

Sometimes I know exactly what I want to order at the drive thru but, I always ask for just one more minute to decide. I am very indecisive =not having or showing the ability to make decisions quickly and effectively.

And restaurants I take forever to order... two things that concern me are the price of the food item and will this satisfy my hunger. How often do we order way too much cause we are afraid that if we're not completely full we will have to inconvenience the waiter/waitress for more food. I am a food junky...especially ranch. All my friends know my obsession and odd love for Ranch. It is soooooo bad for you with a billion calories but it tastes so good.  

I feel like sometimes what I'm hungry for doesn't always hit the spot or satisfy. There are certain fast food joints that I only order the same thing every time....for one I don't like to sway from habit and two, what if it doesn't satisfy and than I'm stuck with it..miserable and still hungry. 

But, there is this one really cool place that all the cool people who live forever hang out. Its called "The well of living water" this place is not somewhere you can physically go to. The food is not edible but it has the most satisfying and quenching menu. All that thirst and hunger that keeps you up at night or keeps you out at night will be met. 

"but whoever drinks of the water that I will give him will never be thirsty again. The water that I will give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life.” John 4:14

We as humans, mankind were created to consume. We all have a deep need to be filled. For our thirst to be met and our hunger to be satisfied. WE all need to feel complete. A great and encouraging verse is found in 

James 1:4 " And let steadfastness have its full effect, 

Our end result, when we have finished the race, we will be perfectly complete lacking in nothing. I love this. Cause it is not based on my performance but rather accepting the transformation.

But many times we are tempted by the soft drinks and tasty cheeseburgers that deceive us from really knowing the true definition of SATISFIED. Growing up I had a lot of issues with how I was viewed, how I wanted a boyfriend, the confidence to get outside my comfort zone, the way I wanted attention. I grasped at things that would have never quenched my craving but rather make it worse. I was willing to settle, to compromise. Now in my head and heart I knew that the things of this world were only temporary...if it be love or lack their of from parents or attention from boys, I wanted what I didn't have. 

In Genesis, Abraham was an old wise man who followed the leading of God without knowing the direction of steps the Lord was calling Him to take. He knew that God had great things for Him, He was even given a promise  

" And I will make of you a great nation, and I will bless you and make your name great, so that you will be a blessing." Gen 12:2

“Behold, my covenant is with you, and you shall be the father of a multitude of nations." 
Gen 17:2

SO, here we have Abraham being told he is going to be a father of MANY nations. And instead of holding onto that promise and being satisfied with it...he goes outside of the promise of God and creates His own idea of that promise. He sleeps with the maidservant. He was given a clear promise....but decided to hunger and thirst after the temporary. 

When I don't fully understand God's forgiveness...I tend to question it. When I don't fully believe that Jesus loves me, all of me...I search for it in other ways. Because part of me doesn't want to get hurt. 

As Christians we are guaranteed life everlasting. We are promised to be made perfectly complete lacking in nothing. WE are promised that the things of this world will NEVER fill our deepest desires, biggest dreams and the whole that longs to be overflowing with love. We must face it and put on the armor of God that will help us resist the thoughts that God isn't enough. 
If you think that God is not enough than your view of Him is very small. He is big. His plans and thoughts and desires and hopes and dreams are bigger and more grand than you could ever hope to know. Do you get it? 

Adam and Eve didn't just eat the fruit cause it looked tasty, they ate it cause they were hungry. They were hungry for the things that were temporary. I find it sad and funny that even with the most perfect mate, perfect communion with God, perfect promise being laid out, they chose the temporary. They chose ashes for the most satisfying and mouth watering feast. We can't overcome this deep hunger and thirst alone. We need His strength.

I'm so like Adam and Eve and Abraham. I don't always want to wait. I settle for less. I trust in my plans rather than His. I try to love my own way instead of loving through Him. I fail. And God knows. And God still gives me promises and still refines me and still satisfies. Because He is good. 

If you are in that place where you are tired of the menu that the world offers you, or tired of always settling or maybe feeling as if you don't deserve to even partake of "the well of living water" than you are not alone. I really want to encourage you to stop and be still before the Lord. Lay your burdens and desires and struggles at His feet.

"Cast your burden on the LORD, and he will sustain you; he will never permit the righteous to be moved." Psalm 55:22

 As as you pray for God to move radically, believe it. Be expectant of Him. When you genuinely seek God, He will desperately seek you.

This is real love at cost. 


Wednesday, February 05, 2014


Story time

I have been actively serving in ministry since the age of 7.
As my mother would clean the bathrooms at church I would assist her the best I could. She took me to all of the church events to serve at.When I was 12 my mom joined Single's ministry where every Friday night we would set up and tear down. At 13 I joined Children's ministry and assisted in the 4 year old class on Sunday mornings and 1st- 6th grade on Friday nights. I did that for 7 years. And I have been with the high school ministry for 8 1/2 years now. I love serving my Lord. One thing I have learned is to always have Jesus number 1. Although I have always loved Jesus and served Him, my identity was found in fear.

My home life was hard. My mom worked a lot. Parents divorced. My dad lived in another city and I didn't get to see him often. My mom, 2 brothers and I lived with my grandparents and school was the least of my worries. I attended 5 elementary schools alone and all together attended 8 schools.

Most of High School was not a great experience for me. I struggled with my identity in Christ, I had a lot of distractions around me and a lot of temptations. A lot of my friends were into drugs, cutting, stealing, alcohol and like them we both struggled with depression. I find it funny how Jesus protected me, because if anyone would have offered me drugs or an invite to a party or a relationship....I would have said yes. But no one ever did. I would be a couple feet away from my friends as they would light up but was never offered. Without me even knowing it, a light was shining. We were all trying to find our place in this world, some pushed there way into it to make a name for themselves and some just stood there, hoping their time would come. We all wanted what we didn't have...which was love.
Typical day was either walking 2 miles to school or taking the bus and if i woke up too late I would beg my college aged brother to give me a ride so that I wouldn't be late. I most definitely did not want to be there but I was a good kid... so I went. I barely passed my classes, my grades were C to D average, I had no interest in school.Upon arrival to my home I faced one of my brothers making it difficult for me to enter... I was constantly bullied and dealt with verbal abuse. Almost every night I cried wanting more, wanting life to be different. I felt like I didn't fit in and the drive to live was only renewed upon attending church a few times a week. Church was my out, it was my escape from life and the trials I had to face. Going to church was the highlight of my week. I was able to fellowship, be myself, have fun with my christian friends and most of all experience the love of Christ. I knew Jesus was there for me but it was sometimes hard to see the good in the trials. He never left me.
My few friends at school were not Christians, I was probably the only one they knew. Most times during lunch we would make comments about the kids walking by as if we were different or even better than them...but really we were worse. I loathed the jocks and cheerleaders. The teachers only seemed to care about homework and grades. I never felt like they wanted to invest in me. None of them did.
There were a few christian clubs i attended but eventually they died out.

Then at a summer camp before my Junior year, I rededicate my life and started to care how I portrayed Jesus. During Junior year I found a few Christian friends and the Lord started using me, we would talk about Jesus and during lunch discus the bible. I finally felt like I was actually being a light. I finally cared. And when all seemed like life was a little less hard, my mom remarried and we moved away. So the issue of attending a private christian school came up. My fear crippled me into depression and a hard heart. Change was a constant in my life and I never accepted it with open arms. Mid summer right before my Senior year the Lord really challenged me to trust Him and let go of my fears. I didn't realize that I had been in a deep depression all through my first 3 years of high school until that summer.I finally surrendered and immediately  had peace that I had never known before. My fight with God was over and although He won, I had victory.

Senior year was great, I had great friends, awesome teachers and Jesus was constant in my life. I was so impacted by one of my high school counselors during my high school years that I wanted to be one. After I graduated I went to summer camp as a leader and have been with the High school ministry ever since.
But it wasn't easy. And we are not promised an easy life. Life was hard but He allowed me to go through those trials that I could be an example to others. The Lord has given me a love for the high schoolers that I serve with. I would have never thought that I'd still be "in" high school, the place and time of life I hated the most. I'm amazed by these kids, their stories, their hearts, their hurts and pains. And every week He reveals to me just how much He loves them. I get to be apart of the work He is doing in their lives and the Lord is constantly transforming my heart. The more I learn about the trials these kids face, the more I want to show them Jesus. The more I'm reminded to pray for them and love them. And I am challenged to know Jesus more.

The only constant I had was Jesus. I never doubted that God loved me but rather the amount of love. My concept of love was tarnished growing up. I still struggle with the fact that He loves me in all that I am. Yet I am constantly reminded through His word, through my church family and through my mom. I can always rely on my God. He met me in my darkest moments in my hardest of times and in the fears that kept me chained.

I have so much to be thankful for, He saved me from myself, set me free and gave me peace. I am forever in love with my Savior who gave it all that I may know Him and be loved.

" So we have come to know and to believe the love that God has for us. God is love, and whoever abides in love abides in God, and God abides in Him" 1 John 4:16

Abide in Him. Walk with Him. Trust and obey. Love Jesus and keep your eyes on Him.


Tuesday, January 28, 2014


So Tuesdays are venting Tuesdays for me and my friend.We sit at our favorite coffee joint and chat about our day and vent. Its what we do and its so nice just to share all about the things going on in our lives. At the end of our hang time we pray.

SOOOO often without even realizing it...I tend to talk about people....not always in a bad manner, more just sharing than really anything. sometimes the negative banter will be done, BUT I have noticed how often I talk rather than praying. I heard a Pastor say recently that if we have a problem with someone its a check of our own hearts, not them. Very heart wrenching sermon. Think about it, all the problems we have with people or school or work is really a heart issue. Would you voluntarily admit that most of the problems are because of you. 

My friend can never lift my burdens and magically make me feel less stressed about life...yet I go into the week sometimes craving the Tuesday vent night so I can just get it off my chest and be done with what happened that week. I am so quick to wait for one night yet I put off spending precious time with my Jesus. Jesus doesn't have an appointment book that He has to schedule me in....why do I? Why do we? 
My friend and I spend 2 to sometimes 4 hours chatting and what IF, what IF we prayed that whole time...

I am convicted. I am sorry that I talk about you, rather than pray for you. I am sorry that I don't know enough about your life to pray for you more. I am sorry.

Prayer unifies, edifies, encourages, puts our focus on the Lord, directs our hearts back to Jesus, sets captives free, comforts and connects us the living God. Prayer is vital. Communion with God is vital to a lasting fruitful walk with Jesus. The word pray is mentioned 313 times in the bible...must be important.

"Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer." 
Romans 12:12

One of the many great benefits of having Jesus as our friend and Savior is that He NEVER ceases to intercede for us. He NEVER stops praying for us. He loves us. This makes me think that if I'm not praying for those around me than I'm not loving them. And we are called to LOVE. That's one of the greatest commandments. 

Muy importante!!!!

36 “Teacher, which is the great commandment in the Law?” 37 And he said to him, “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.38 This is the great and first commandment. 39 And a second is like it: You shall love your neighbor as yourself. "
Matthew 22:36-39

Exhoration for the day- Spend time with the Lord, pray for those around you, love your family they are your greatest ministry, seek Jesus and give Him your burdens.

Truth- God wants to meet with you. He wants you to give Him your burdens. God is the ultimate comforter and healer of wounds. Your request are not to big or small. JESUS LOVES YOU!!!

Lies- God doesn't care about your small requests. God has more important things than you. God is not personal.

Please don't ever think that your requests or lives are not important. Jesus proved His love for you by dying on the cross, if that doesn't show that He is committed, I don't know what does. 

I would love to pray for you, so send me your requests. Nothing like being humbled and brought to your knees than praying for those who need it. 


Sunday, January 05, 2014

Put em' up

"Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, 
for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. 
And let steadfastness have its full effect, 
that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing" 
                                                                                   James 1:2                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          If Jesus did not die a sinners death, 
            I would have no reason to be as vulnerable as He.

vulnerable (ˈvʌlnərəbəl)
1. capable of being physically or emotionally wounded or hurt.

I have no excuse, no way to go around it, I am not in the position to hold onto my blanket of fear any longer. In fact fear, is what keeps me distant from God and His great love. I write...and think a lot about fear. it is my burden. my friend. my enemy. my blindfold. But...I want more of JESUS and less of me. I want more of His love, more of His grace, more of His truth, more of Him and less of me. Less of my fear and worry and burdens.

Recently I was faced with the towering decision to trust that Jesus has given me a specific gift and 
to no longer hide it under a bushel. hahaha who knows what this year will bring.

Vulnerability allowed the people who followed God to part the red sea, survive the lions den, become the father of many nations, walk on water, gather and be filled with the gifts of the Holy Spirit. True surrender involves more than words,it involves your dwelling to be in the hands of God.

My friends often tell me I think too much, I way over think about nonsense and what if''s but hardly do I over think on the amazing story of a love that came down to captivate the souls of the lost. Sometimes its easier to think about things I have control over...keeps me safe...from being vulnerable. So to this year...I am letting go. This year will be filled with trials and I will be tempted to seek after temporary satisfactions. but victory is here and my only grasp is for Jesus.
I want to be perfected and complete. I have no excuse to believe its already been done.

lets partake in the victory together. 


No more hiding under a bushel
Or keeping in the shadows
This light is too important
For my fears to win this battle

Uncertain of the outcome
Unsure to which extent,
The bushel will no longer be,
my blanket of content

Rise and hear the calling
Rise and hear Him say
Of all to whom obey my word
Whom love and come my way
Thy home shall be your dwelling
In perfection we shall stay

Glory honor praise to Him
Let's rise and let it shine
The light will set us free from
The bushel of our sinful past
The light has set us free
The one Who chose to love and die that day
In him my heart will rest
In him my heart will rest

(jn 14:23)
English Standard Version
Jesus answered him, “If anyone loves me, he will keep my word, and my Father will love him, and we will come to him and make our home with him.