Irritated by my empty stomach and lack of food to satisfy my most needed energy boost...I received a lovely and nasty paper cut at work. Not only was my brain completely starving for substance; maybe my heart more. For dinner, I consumed half a bag of Cool Ranch Doritos and a slim-jim. Not my ideal for a good meal.
Fast foward to a few hours after work where I spend every Tuesday night at either a Peet's or Denny's talking to dear friend about life and Jesus. I can tell you that my second attempt at dinner was not a good choice either...but none the less it was food. Although the food I consumed was not even close to satisfying that empty whole it just really did not taste all that good.
But, one thing that did stick, that did fill bit of the emptiness that I have been carrying around was the simple and profound subject of Jesus. Simple because His name alone brings immediate awareness of how much I need His grace. And profound because the name of Jesus has authority and power beyond belief. And the more we talked about Jesus, the more I wanted to talk about Jesus. And when arriving home I wanted to read about Jesus.
I have realized, that I have nothing to offer Jesus. I don't have a fancy feast on a beautifully decorated table waiting for Him. I am not prepared to receive His blessings or hear about His promises when I don't even open up my word.
Many times I tend to associate blessings with works...my thoughts are well if I read my bible than surely He will...He must bless me. It does not work like that. His blessings are for the taking and they are always available whether we see them or not. His blessings are not limited to our human nature to put God last on our list. Now although His blessings are always there, I do think that the measure can be different. When we do things that please the Lord and glorify Him, the blessing will be greater. But it should always point our hearts and eyes back to Jesus, that when we receive the blessings we are to bless Him in return.
Being a Christian for most of my life I can say that I don't think I will ever grasp the immense vast love He has for His creation. I can't repay Him in other way than giving Him my complete heart. For it wasn't really mine in the first place.
He is soooo worthy of our attention and hearts. He wants to know His creation and He wants to show you how much He loves you.