Wednesday, May 29, 2013

Freedom to Eat

    I think its safe to say that we all want some freedom in our lives. Maybe its freedom from responsabililty or freedom from fear. Maybe freedom from ourselves. I know that most of the problem doesnt lie with whatever situation I am facing, but it really has to do with me. I tend to fixate on the objects rather than the reality. If that makes sense? Lets say I'm making a PB&J for lunch but than i start to think about dinner or maybe breakfast for tomorrow...I create this hunger for those meals than rather enjoying the food that is in front of me. I make myself WANT. But do I ENJOY what I have? Why are we so discontent. Why do we want for tomorrow?

  "This is the day that the LORD has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it." Psalm 118:4

 These past couple of months I have been really looking into getting a "better" car. This better car would let me go further in distance without a worry, it would provide more opportunites for "ministry" and it would bring me happiness. My fixation for this vehichle is raging. EVERYTIME i see a Ford Escape 2009 on the fwy... I imagine me driving it. :( and wishing that it was mine. And I am driving my car that the Lord has allowed me to have for the past 7 years, I snap back to reality. I am reminded gently by the Lord that God can use my 19 year old car just as much. How often do we discount the things right in front of and put our HOPE in things we know not of? How often do I think anything else will bring me happiness, but what I'm really searching for is Joy. Do we settle for the "happy" we might get tomorrow or do we rejoice in the "joy" that we've been given today.Unfortunatly i dont know if i will ever fully get it...the concept of being satisfied with the Spiritual rather than the physical. But do I surrender or give in?

  "Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us," Ephesians 3:20

 MY GOD is able. So, lets just rest in that our God is able to do more than we could imagine. And lets step outside of our own plans and ideas of what will bring us happiness and lets rest in the joy that is set before us. Now we have given freedom to eat that fruit in the middle of the garden and we have also been given the promise that God will and is taking care of us...that we only need what He provides. Thank you Jesus for your everlasting and unchanging love. Help me to rest in your truth and to trust in your promises. May we all strive to live this day for you alone. -Amen.

Friday, May 10, 2013

Along came a spider

Out of nowhere this thing, this black creepy object started becoming more clear in the mirror as I finished washing my face. I immediately started to strategize on how i would rid this beast of its life. As I am looking around my bathroom trying to find anything sufficient to kill it before it gets away...or worse attacks me; I get my blow dryer out. Yes, at 1 am i decide that the best method of killing the LARGE(slightly over dramatic)spider on my ceiling is to get out my blow dryer. So I plug that puppy in and point right at it. But nothing...he doesn't fall to the ground because of the intense heat, he cringes for a second and than starts to build its web and retrieve down it. I'm FREAKING out...the spider starts to swing back in forth because of the air from the dryer and all i can think is that it will somehow get on me and kill me. Well, that spider didn't get the best of! I got my axe perfume and started spraying at it...finally the beast falls to the ground and i capture it with a bottle, find a shoe and smack death. and flushed it down the toilet.
 Those brief five minutes were so intense. I had to think quick and not allow it to get out of my sight. When i first saw the spider,fear drifted right in. I allowed this tiny little creature to affect my behavior in a radically insane manner. I chose to give into my fear. Btw, I really hate spiders. "For God has not given us a Spirit of fear, but of power,love and a sound mind." 2 Timothy 1:7 Everyone fears something. Its true, I fear a lot of things for instance, people. Being put outside of my comfort zone, meeting people, singing in front of people, failing. Um...what else...I fear the enemy, i fear the unknown. These are just a few things. But these things if left alone to long can become part of my crutch. If I allow these fears to cease me, than I'm giving up trust in the one who says that He has GIVEN me a spirit of POWER, LOVE, and a SOUND MIND. Are we to hold onto the things that bind us and lead us away from the truth? Truth: Fear has no power over me. Truth: Fear is an indicator of the lack of trust. If i fear the unknown and i believe that God has everything in control and His outcome is best, I am essentially casting out that His ways for me are not true and good. I start to doubt His ability to lead and guide me to the right path.

 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths." Proverbs 3:5-6 

 This verse has been so prevalent in my walk with the Lord, I am constantly being reminded of the words. Sometimes I will read the bible but I don't allow it to be alive. This fear that I hold onto, that controls my behaviors in a radically insane manner, that keeps me from fully experiencing the best and most amazing promises that come directly from the Creator of this universe; if not given to the Lord, will consume me. Don't let that spider(fear) get the best of you. Don't let your fear of the unknown or people or the future scare you away from taking that next step. I am defiantly preaching to myself right now. Give your fear to the Lord and like He promised; He will give you a Spirit of POWER, LOVE and a SOUND MIND>believe it. live it.

 - Mis

Wednesday, May 08, 2013

more soup please?

Today, I went to lunch with my brother and step-dad.I was so hungry by the time we got to the place i was in anticipation to eat this food that looked amazing and sounded amazing and smelled really good. We find a seat outside with the lovely sun touching the table and a slight breeze as we received our order of fish tacos. the sight alone got me wanting more before i even could taste it. And after those two tacos plus some chips were consumed i felt satisfied. I was full. I of course could eat more but i was content with what was given to me.
 Now, I love food. I love to try different foods. I love that when I have an empty stomach my hunt and determination to find something, anything to get rid of this will bring me happiness. I love that feeling of being full. Always of course leaving room for dessert...cause come on who doesn't have a dessert after every meal?! My Physical hunger needs to be met,and If I don't consume something I will starve and eventually die. It is vital to drink plenty of liquid and retain somewhat of a consistent food intake. Your body tells you when you are lacking iron, protein, are constantly in tune with what your body needs and wants and what it can handle. But, how many times do we hunger and thirst after Jesus? No really, how many times do we look at our bibles with big eyes as if we have seen the most delicious, exquisite, most tempting display of a meal. I can't say that i have often. This prized possession, this gift is easily ignored and covered up by other JESUS books and stuff.We fill our hunger with everything else that we don't even have room for the sweet stuff,the extra blessings(dessert) the Lord wants to shower us with. And yet, when I'm hungry for Jesus and I "need" to hear from Him, I open of that thick book and seek to find an answer. Why do we hunger for things that crumble? Why do we settle for second best? Why are we not consuming the LIVING word of GOD momentarily? Why?, because we are content. We are just ok with the food that will only last 4-6 hours or the possessions this world so temptingly offers us. We deny the amazing and settle for the dirt. I love that verse that says " Taste and see that the Lord is good". God is inviting us to be apart of Him, to know Him, to be consumed by Him. What are we waiting for?, for the Lord to speak. Well than read. Be filled. Be full to your hearts content. Be satisfied with His promises and His truths, with His leading and His grace. Be satisfied with His love that never ends and be emptied of yourself. Be still. Just be. Our God's love is simple and profound. It does not require knowledge but acceptance. WE are not going to fully know how much He loves us until we reach heaven but we have been give His love and all we need to do is accept it.

 "Oh Jesus fill me up to amaze and to be amazed that this love would be contagious it would not end here that my heart would thirst for your goodness that my heart would not let go Oh Jesus, my beloved show me in your time the ways that valleys and mountain tops have seen your hand divinely orchestrate a path I could not see to follow the footsteps that lead me to thee. " -me. 

This is something that the Lord has been pressing on my heart to hunger for the spiritual. So be encouraged that Jesus is with you every step of the way and that He isn't finished with you yet.