Tuesday, April 30, 2013


My friend was sharing with me today of how The Lord was clearly showing her through His word some of the plans He has for her and I thought. Wow, what a concept?

"Call to me and I will answer you, and will tell you great and hidden things that you have not known."(Jeremiah 33:3 ESV)

I'm going to paint you a mental picture-
Your sitting at the desk with the phone in your hand and all you hear is that annoying beep beep sound telling you that you haven't dialed the number yet... And until someone else comes into the room seeing if you are off... You realize that you haven't even dialed.
I was reading through some of my old old posts about God providing and showing Himself faithful. I'm always amazed of how God chooses to bless and provide and speak. But have you noticed that in times of heart ache and desperation we seem to be more "in tune" with The Lord. Why is that? I think, because we are not only picking up the phone, but dialing the number, we are in a position of seeking and asking. Then I think man, we have COMPLETE access... No limit on minutes or bad connections and no time frame of when we can reach God...why do we wait for desperate times? It's kinda funny how I will take all my issues that need answer or guidance to everyone first but The Lord. Yet, HE has all the answers. So let's go back to the desk with the phone in hand, and nothing is wrong per say in life all is well and you just start talking to The Lord and you share your heart with HIM and when it seems like you really don't need answers the Lord is showing you his plans.
I ask a lot of questions in my head, not praying but hoping that somehow I will find that answer,that I don't need to dial the number, that I can figure it out on my own.
Until... I am still and quiet do I realize that... Going to Jesus is way better.
I also have figured out. And mind you I a kinda slow...that when I am not in the WORD daily, I'm not building up my armor, I'm not in COMMUNICATION with my Jesus. So how can I get any answers from Him if I haven't even dialed the number? If I haven't even opened my Word?

"I sought the Lord, and he answered me and delivered me from all my fears."(Psalms 34:4 ESV)


25 1/2

I'm 25. A sister to three crazy awesome brothers. A daughter to four parents. And a friend/ sister to the many amazing people I get to serve with at my church. I love being spontaneous. I love laughing and being silly even if it makes me look weird. I wear my emotions on my sleeve and sometimes don't express enough emotions. I have an emotional jar that seems to always overflow without ever being opened. I don't like crying. I work and serve to glorify my Savior.
I'm 25. But I'm not content. Some say to strive for more...pick a career and go for it. Some say to keep serving and great things will happen. I trust that The Lord has complete control and amazing plans for my life. But it's not so easy being content.
I'm 25 and single....as in...I've been single for 25 years. I want kids, a family, another adventure.
So there's a cliff that leads to some adventures and its safe to jump but I'm not sure where it will take me... Do I go for it? Or do I just sit and try to find another way?

Am I even prepared to make that jump...

Monday, April 29, 2013


I'm easily entertained...I could sit at a coffee shop or sit in the middle of the mall and watch people for hours. I love to observe people's behavior. And it's easy to get lost in being the one who looks at others,rather than being the one others are looking at. A few things I notice are the way people communicate with one another and how they dress. We all want to be valued, to be found of worth. But even more than that, to feel wanted. I serve at my church in the high school ministry and I love to set up and tear down...I like serving because it gives me a sense of value. The room needs to be cleaned...therefore I am needed.
Not only in general do we all seek to be valued and found worthy among our peers and family but also by Jesus. I know that any value that I'm looking for besides Jesus will ultimately leave me empty.
I know that we as followers of Christ need to take hold of the position that He has given us... That we are a prized possession. It breaks my heart to see some of my high school girls seek such attention when really they are just lowering their worth.
I struggle with finding myself valuable and worth anything sometimes... But I do know that God loves me and His word is good and true. His Word is what I need to hold onto and seek after. Nothing else matters.
I exhort you to seek out Jesus. He has already proven how valuable you are by taking on your sins and taking them to the cross. Do we not have VICTORY to stand on higher ground- to accept His sacrifice and unfailing love?! YES we do.