Wednesday, December 11, 2013

Again and again and again!!!

I frequently fail.

"My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever." Psalm 73:26

As much as I complain often in my heart about where I am at in life, I could not be better without my Jesus.
 I forget to be thankful for the areas the Lord has grown me in and refuse to change in the areas I am terrified to walk through. I fear the unknown. My joy is definitely not constant and I choose ignoring the things that could change me and I run the opposite direction. I have a huge heart for the high school ministry. I love serving the kids and I am challenged by their walks, their questions, their curiosity, their doubts and their love for Jesus. I am challenged to know Jesus more so that I can love them like Jesus. But again and again and again I fail.

Many times because of pride we often reject the thought that we fail. Sometimes we tend to put on such a show to others that we start to believe we are not affected by what goes on around us. I am NOT perfect. I am not always in the "mood" to read my bible, to hear what Jesus has to say, or to always have a joyful heart. But I want to. I desire to be continually transformed into His image. Earlier this week as I was talking to one of my high schoolers, she had shared that one of the things she notices in the counselors is Joy. I was a bit caught off guard because there are many times I do not feel joy or that I appear to have it. Many times I feel quite the opposite. That challenged me to examine my heart, I am so thankful that even when I don't feel worthy or able to serve Jesus, He still uses me. His Spirit is still transforming me.

But Joy is not a feeling, it is not something I can buy and its not something that I can create. Joy can only come from the Lord. I believe it is a choice and it is a gift.

I frequently fail. But my God never fails.
I challenge you to be honest with the Lord and watch Him transform you into His image.

 Jesus didn't save perfect people, He saved you knowing your broken sinful nature so that He could perfect you.


Thursday, November 21, 2013

standing at the cross

Filthy I come
Unashamed I receive
the sacrifice that rescued me at His feet
undeserved of His love,
raised to life through His blood.

Sought only to know and to be loved
Wretched sinner standing at the cross
with those who now realize their own loss

The unbelief of who they claimed my Jesus to be
opened eyes, He helped them see
Only one man, one GOD, one SAVIOR
could set them free.

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Papercuts and Denny's

Ramblings from a few weeks ago...

Irritated by my empty stomach and lack of food to satisfy my most needed energy boost...I received a lovely and nasty paper cut at work. Not only was my brain completely starving for substance; maybe my heart more. For dinner, I consumed half a bag of Cool Ranch Doritos and a slim-jim. Not my ideal for a good meal.

Fast foward to a few hours after work where I spend every Tuesday night at either a Peet's or Denny's talking to dear friend about life and Jesus. I can tell you that my second attempt at dinner was not a good choice either...but none the less it was food. Although the food I consumed was not even close to satisfying that empty whole it just really did not taste all that good.

But, one thing that did stick, that did fill bit of the emptiness that I have been carrying around was the simple and profound subject of Jesus. Simple because His name alone brings immediate awareness of how much I need His grace. And profound because the name of Jesus has authority and power beyond belief. And the more we talked about Jesus, the more I wanted to talk about Jesus. And when arriving home I wanted to read about Jesus.

I have realized, that I have nothing to offer Jesus. I don't have a fancy feast on a beautifully decorated table waiting for Him. I am not prepared to receive His blessings or hear about His promises when I don't even open up my word.

Many times I tend to associate blessings with thoughts are well if I read my bible than surely He will...He must bless me. It does not work like that. His blessings are for the taking and they are always available whether we see them or not. His blessings are not limited to our human nature to put God last on our list. Now although His blessings are always there, I do think that the measure can be different. When we do things that please the Lord and glorify Him, the blessing will be greater. But it should always point our hearts and eyes back to Jesus, that when we receive the blessings we are to bless Him in return.

Being a Christian for most of my life I can say that I don't think I will ever grasp the immense vast love He has for His creation. I can't repay Him in other way than giving Him my complete heart. For it wasn't really mine in the first place.

"Many are the plans in the mind of a man, but it is the purpose of the LORD that will stand."
Proverbs 19:21 

He is soooo worthy of our attention and hearts. He wants to know His creation and He wants to show you how much He loves you.

Sweet and Bitter

Sweet to my ears
Bitter to my heart
To know this love must first set apart 

To set apart those who's hope is in the Savior
To those who choose to call him their own
And ache for those who seek the treasures of fading suns
And idols that turn to dust

Men who read but do not listen
Men who see but who do not believe
Allowed destruction and freedom
Rest can't come to those you don't trust

Burdens carried far, some surrender
Others are in too deep to see that the broad path does not give life but rather leads to a deeper and darker
Place where emptiness and despair dwell 
to only realize that they no longer sense the light that was always by their side,
the light that kept them warm and safe and sure of no harm

Now they seek to feel it again
Lost in the battle of reality and the effects of sin
We are all trapped in a spiral of unknown
It just takes a step to admit that we are at fault
We have rejected
We have fallen

He has come to overcome
He has come to break the chains
He has come to bring light
He has come to win the fight

Sweet, To die
To live
To love
To be

He is
The payment
The hero
The victor of our souls who dashingly sought our retched selves to bring a peace only his son could fulfill
Oh Savior how Sweet

My take on Revelation 9

Wednesday, October 09, 2013

Every hour

At the end of September I was presented an opportunity to travel with my friend Jessica, to her new home in New Jersey. The plan, travel a few thousand miles in five days. And I thought well since i'll be so close to New York...why not add that in there. The Lord is so good. It was such an awesome trip, talking about Jesus, chatting with people along the way and finally arriving at the home where my friend is now living. Being greeted with Jesus in these people was such a blessing. Getting to see the Lord completely turn my friends life around and take her across the country just to prove that He has so much in store for her life. I am always amazed at how Jesus will take a desire that I have and make it happen...the most unexpected of times and ways. But, there is no way that we would have made it to each stop and to our destination without Jesus. The Lord kept us safe the whole way. Jesus met us. 

I love the hymn,    "I need Thee, O I need Thee;
                                Every hour I need Thee;
                               O bless me now, my Savior,
                              I come to Thee." 

Lately I have been lacking the zeal and thirst for Jesus. Every Tuesday night I get to hang, vent, pray, sing songs with my friend Emilie. It is such a blessing to just bring it all back to Jesus, that no matter how bad the day was or how crazy life seems, that Jesus is and should always be the center of every area in my life. And than I get to reflect on how much I need my Jesus. I love that He calls me his own. 

I need Jesus. I am poor, blind, lost, dirty and hopeless without my Savior. Only in Him, am I perfected, rich, found, cleansed and filled with joy. It is so easy to be complacent. Its so easy to get off track of spending QUALITY time with Jesus. How is it that we have Jesus with us everywhere we go and yet we lack the awareness of His presence? How can I go on with my day and not take a moment to thank him? How can I have the security in my Savior but not give Him my full attention and my daily plans? 

I need Jesus. Please don't neglect your need for Him. Please don't take His love and peace and joy for granted. He wants to fill your life with abundant blessings, with never ending promises and with adventures you could have never imagined. He has THE BEST in store for you. I'm so thankful that my doubt in Jesus' plans for my life does not change the fact that His desires for me are far wider and deeper than the vast oceans.

Breathe. Let Jesus take your burdens. Let Him fill you with His JOY. Let Him whisper sweet promises into your life. 

STOP. Stop guessing. stop questioning the power of God or the reality of His work. But, take the venture. Trust in His handwork and believe that ...

Ephesians 2:10

10 For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared beforehand, that we should walk in them."

Rest. Rest and watch Him do amazing things through you. 

Give thanks. He is so worthy. 

I hope this is an encouragement. These are just some things that the Lord is showing and teaching me in this season. I am expectant for some awesome stuff :) 

Oh Jesus I need thee, every hour. 

"For you are great and do wondrous things; you alone are God. Teach me your way, O LORD, that I may walk in your truth; unite my heart to fear your name. I give thanks to you, O Lord my God, with my whole heart, and I will glorify your name forever." 
Psalm 86: 11-12

If you need prayer please let me know, i'd love to pray for ya. :) 

- Mis

Friday, September 20, 2013

Making sense

Often times I get so caught up in the next chapter or next step that I forget to breathe. I love how there are so many stories in the bible of how people doubted God but that His faithfulness always was the center of the story. I'm so thankful that I can count on my Jesus to lead and guide me wherever I go.
Abraham was chosen to bring forth a son who would change the world. Abraham was chosen to take a step of faith. David was chosen to be leader. Rebecca was chosen to be the wife of Isaac. Jonah was chosen to bring the good news to a dying place. Moses was chosen to lead the people to the promise land. Joseph was chosen to be the husband of Mary. Daniel was chosen to stand up for his beliefs, even unto death. Paul was chosen to show us what a true disciple looks like. All these people didn't one day say " Hey Lord, I want to be taken through the roughest of times and die for you if I have to." I'm not sure if they would of followed the direction of the Lord without knowing securely that they were in good hands. Its says clearly in the bible that He will not leave nor forsake us. Yet...I place my trust in man. I place my trust in unsure objects.

I am at awe of how the Lord chose these people knowing there downfalls and disobedient attitudes. I am not worthy of His guidance or blessings. A lot of the times I can say that I've been an Abraham who doubted the blessings of God, or a Jonah who denied the leading of the call. Or Paul who spat at the people he would soon come to love. Or Moses who was angered and impatient and wasn't able to enter into the promise land. But....we aren't always going to see the end result. We are given certain tasks in life and its not always going to be easy. In fact it will be difficult and tiring and sometimes impossible. Has he ever given me a reason to doubt him? and the answer will always be NO. So I challenge you and myself to TRUST in the never failing, all knowing and all loving vast creator of the this universe and all that we cannot see, because [if] we are worth so much to Him, is it that hard to believe it.

"Trust in the LORD" and the rest will be great.

"I am not my own
He bought me at a price
the highest king of all the land
made me His greatest prize

in his unfailing love
i rest to further depths
that life is far better
when I'm walking in His steps

Oh vast creator
please shine your glory on me
that as I travel this unknown land
your beauty will lead me home "

warning: this post is not supposed to make sense.

Friday, September 06, 2013

I am selfish

Being selfish is probably one of the easiest things one can do. It does not involve much effort nor is there much gain by being selfish. Because at the end of the end up alone with a house full of nothing and no one to share it with.

I am Selfish. this is one of my poor qualities. I am not proud of it, in fact I tend to forget how selfish I really am, till I am reminded through the simple act of walking dogs.

This week and the next I am so blessed to house/ dog sit for a lady and her husband. I'm not only getting paid, but her house is literally five blocks away from the beach, the weather is ALWAYS perfect here and she has cable. YAY!!! I'm a TV junky right now, since we don't have cable at my house I am soaking up all the benefits of getting away for two weeks. And after being alone with the two dogs for a week now, its been well..lonely. I've had a lot of time to think as I'm waiting for the commercials to end or  as I am driving to and from work and as I am walking the dogs. Time to think about me and where I am at in life and how I live for me and me alone ALL the time. This clicked this afternoon when I came home and immediately was beckoned by the furry creatures to take them on an adventure. But all I wanted to do was kick off my shoes and relax. After walking the dogs for a week now, I have become a pro. I know all the streets and the places they like to go. I have noticed that in the morning bright and early the dogs are soooooo anxious and excited to get out of the house, do their business and make their mark on the streets. Their excitement is felt by the jolting of the leashes as I try not to trip over them, they are almost pulling me along. And towards the end of the 20 minute walk, I'm not the one being pulled anymore. 

I feel like this is me in a nutshell. When I first was passionate about the Lord I made an effort to get to know Him, I went to church 5 times a week, I was involved in three different ministries and life was busy. I wasn't thinking about the lack of rest I was getting because I didn't really care. I just had this passion and excitement for all that was going on around me. I was in a sense being pulled by all of the amazing teaching that I was receiving and  the great fellowship that I was apart of. I was always being uplifted and encouraged and through that I was pouring into others. But than the Lord, took me to a place of surrender. At that time I surrendered all that was keeping me busy and was brought to a place of rest. I never want to be at place where I am dragging others down with me, because of my lack of zeal for the Lord. I realized as I was taking those dogs on their stroll that Jesus is the only one who can fully keep me grounded and always their to uplift me. I can't always be there for my friends nor can they be there for me. My reliance should always be on the giver of life, the one who paints beauty in the sky that takes my breath away.

After being reminded once again that I need Jesus now more than ever, my perspective of me and the plan God has, just got a whole lot clearer. The moment I decrease, is the moment He can fully use me.

"For where jealousy and selfish ambition exist, there will be disorder and every vile practice. 17 But the wisdom from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, open to reason, full of mercy and good fruits, impartial and sincere." James 3:16-17

Are we willing to be obedient to the call? Are you tired of being SELFISH? Are you the one being pulled or the one puling? Are you willing to be used?

There is a balance in life though, we are called to constantly lay down our lives for the Lord., we are not told that it will be easy or fun, but that the outcome will be all worth it. Jesus always laid down His life for His disciples  Jesus knew that He only had so much time on this earth to make an impact and He used it all to point the people back to the creator of the universe.

"So if there is any encouragement in Christ, any comfort from love, any participation in the Spirit, any affection and sympathy, complete my joy by being of the same mind, having the same love, being in full accord and of one mind. Do nothing from selfish ambition or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves. Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others." 
Philippians 2:1-4

"I am in awe of the majesty of my King and humbled by His humility 
I am in awe of His love and the sacrifice He made for me
I am honored to be called His beloved and unworthy to have Him as my Savior
I am captivated by His tender grace that no has no bounds
I am brought to my knees in surrender
and I am not; without the fall a lost and saved soul"

:Praying you take some time and seek the Lord on the areas your struggling in, He will always meet your where your at, you just need to ask . 

- Mis

Sunday, August 11, 2013

Jesus sought me

I was 5. Parents divorced. Moved in with the grandparents and tried to adjust to the new surroundings. Although, I wasn't sure of all that was happening around me, I knew that Jesus loved me and I loved Him very very much. 

Just this past week I was reminded of how Jesus seeks after me. He pursues me. He tells me of His promises, promises that I can hold onto. Because His word never fails.

"Heaven and earth will pass away, but my words will not pass away." Luke 21:33

What a comfort. I so needed to read this, to be reminded. I need to be reminded because so often I fail at believing. A great website that never seems to fail in trapping me and getting me distracted with other peoples lives, is facebook. I will spend a good amount of time almost wishing that I had what my friends have; via a husband, babies, a nicer car, a better place to live, opportunites to travel, more money and etc...
this is a dangerous place to be...I have allowed myself to covet. And we are warned not covet they neighbor, why??? well because it gets your eyes off of Jesus for one and it gets your eyes off of Jesus. 
When I am concerned with what I don't have and what I "need"; I am not in the position to see what is right in front of me. After reading of some joyous news of a friends engagement I secretly thought of how nice it would be to have someone...
Right after that I checked the verse of the day on my bible app and lo and behold the most perfect verse just for me. 
"You also, be patient. Establish your hearts, for the coming of the Lord is at hand." James 5:8

He met me right where I was at, He knew my heart and He gave me comfort.
And this is why I know HE pursues me. We should be pursued and sought after. He desires to give us the desires of our hearts; but are we willing to let Him?

Jesus sought me when was 5 and He seeks me daily. I can never change the past
 but I can allow the Lord to have control of my future. 
I am unsure of many things in life but one thing I can always count on is Jesus. But so many times I question the path the Lord has for me and the unknown plans...
just another reminder

"I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; 
I will counsel you with my eye upon you." 
Psalm 32:8

We sang this song at church this week, this song always gets me. 

"You are the love I need
You are the air I breathe
You are my love my life always forever
I would lay down my life 
Just to be by Your side
You are my love my life always forever"

Phil Wickham
I was convicted this week as well, Am I laying down my life for my Jesus? 

Challenge: seek after Jesus and look forward to His promises :)


Monday, July 22, 2013

Feelings fade and so does the sun

WARNING: Do not rely on your feelings.

I really dislike when I place all of my feelings into one thing, one hope and than end up completely dissapointed. I didn't fully allow the Lord to guard my heart and I didn't surrender all of my feelings either.
How often do we read everything but the words WARNING on a sign, we tend to gloss right over that word, because come on that doesn't apply to me...right?..wrong. There are plenty of warning signs in the bible that we should definately listen to.

Now...feelings are not bad. Feelings are good. But so is the sun and food and pizza and chocolate and bowls of ranch. Yes, i love me some ranch. But...if i consume to much than i will feel icky. See to much of something is not good. Just like relying on ranch to stop my hunger pains I should not be relying on my feelings to fill a void. This is where I tend to put my trust in other things rather than in Jesus.

I can think of a few men in the old testament, where at times feelings led them astray. For instance in the book of Exodus, where Moses went up to the mountain to hear from the Lord and the people below got impatient and thought to build themselves a lovely idol, all because they felt neglected by God. Which in fact they were taken very well care of. They were so distracted by their feelings and lack of joy that they created something to make them feel better.

David knew a lot about feelings and he had a rollercoaster of them. He went through heartache, suffering, battles, depression, worship and the end we see the praises of His aching. God turned David's sorrow into Joy.

Our hearts are ugly and dirty inside, we desperatly need Jesus to cleanse us. We need Him to be the one who catches us and the one who can heal us...not our feelings.
"The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately sick; who can understand it?" Jeremiah 17:9

We need to be constantly handing our thoughts and feelings over to the Lord. Anyting that is not of Him will be cast out. That is my desire that what I do in life is pleased by God and that whatever is not of Him would be cast away. I want the Lord to be the center and the leader of my heart, of my eyes, of my feelings. I am prone to wander and I need Him to be my secure ground which can not be moved.

I encourage you to give over those feelings to the Lord, do not rely on sand that will crumble or the sun that will fade but place your hope and trust in the everlasting creator of the universe. I exhort you to not place your hope in man but in Jesus. I too need this reminder that only Jesus can give me my hearts desire.

"Whoever trusts in his own mind is a fool, but he who walks in wisdom will be delivered." proverbs 28:26

I am constantly reminded to wait on the Lord, to trust in Him. My feelings have lead my astray many times down deep wholes, dark alleys and rough valleys but my Jesus has been the light in the darkest of places.

I don't know who you are or where your coming from in life and I don't know if this has anything to do with what you are going through but I would love to tell that you are valued, you are pursued by the KING OF KINGS, that Jesus desires the best for you, that His love is greater and stronger than our fleeting lusts of the world and that no matter how many tears you shed and how many times you fail in life... He tenderly loves you.

"So faith comes from hearing, and hearing through the word of Christ."- Romans 10:17


Tuesday, July 02, 2013


I made it through the crowd
just inches away from seeing this man
that could heal this bleeding, this pain

I didnt hesistate to get as close as i could,
just enough to touch the end of his robe
enough to be healed of this ache that ive had for so long

I know that i had nothing to offer Him
and I knew and heard He was the healer of sin
in that moment I was stopped in the streets
by the comforting voice of this man
I could no longer see

the crowds were pushy and loud that day,
but, my Jesus couldnt ignore the power that was displayed
He called me out,
a woman who once was in pain
to see who i was
He called me by name

He said,Daughter
I melted, this man was not ashamed
He commanded that I go and walk in peace
His promises I clinged to and I was set free

After 12 long years,
I have never known such compassion
and love from anyone before
I was healed by a man whose words changed my life

Matthew 9:20

Thursday, June 13, 2013

Faithful or faux?

There are endless stories in the bible that refer to God being faithful, but it isn't much until we experience it first hand. This week has been super crazy, with lack of sleep and spiritual warface. I have been getting beaten and at times discouraged. The Lord took a situation completly out of my control, where i thought all is woe and made it work out better than i could have imagined.
God does that sometimes.
Its like God coming into a bakery setting the place on fire, just so that He could supply all their needs and rebuild a better bakery. It takes us humans a little while to figure out that God is in control and He has always had everything in control.

What if I told you that no matter how many times you doubted the power and provison of God, He still would not leave you nor forsake you and He would still be faithful ? What if I told you that all your burdens that you lug around day after day and moment by moment were never meant for you to carry? Or that all the hardships you face are worth it.

"For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong." 2 Corinthians 12:10

Worth it? you may ask. But yes. Worth it. Because if God chose to kill His one and only son to take away my sin than any hardship i face is going to be met with the hand of my God, and He will endure.

"Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me." Psalm 23:4

Well. I am thankful that I have a faithful God. One who cares for my every need and desires to take my burdens even after He took the ultimate burden of Sin. Who would do that, not only sign up to take away my sin on the cross but daily. Why? Why is God so good? Why is He so faithful? Why do I still think that I can do it on my own? Why do I doubt that He will meet all my needs?

We are told by Paul, "And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus." Philippians  4:19 

Now, if this is false and God just cant or wont supply all our needs, why would it be in the bible. I mean that is a heavy promise, He already saved us from ultimate death and we definatley do not deserve anything more than that but still...we are given this reassurance, this hope, this promise that all our needs will be met. Of course not in our way, not like we should even demand a way or think that we should have a say in the matter. God is sooo good to give us more "Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us," (Eph 3:20)

I don't know the outcome of how my life will be or how I will finish that race....but I do know and am given a promise I can stand on that He will supply my needs , He will do more than I can ask or think, that I have His power that dwells in me and that I don't have to do anything but believe; the race and the finish line are things i cannot control. I can though, trust and give Him the glory for getting me through it all. 

And this is where I get more and more amazed, where i love God more and more. Because His faithfulness is never ending. 
Is your God faithful or fake?

"Oh, taste and see that the LORD is good! Blessed is the man who takes refuge in him!" Psalm 34:8

- Mis

Saturday, June 01, 2013


You knew it all and you gave love
You know it all and you chose to love
You knew it all and came to love 
You knew it all and forgave your love

Love reaches far beyond the clouds
Far beyond the mountains I create 
Love gave eternal hope
In you I became 
Set free 

We are one 
Made in your image
We are yours Oh Lord
Forever loved by your beloved 
We are yours

Far beyond the valleys 
You reached out your hand
Far beyond my burdens; 
Your love outweighs.
More than all I know,
I know you save.

It's your blood and body 
Broken on a tree 
Where our heavy sin
Laid for all to see
When you took our cup
To set us free
For that  dark hour
Refined We became
Your beloved 
Your beloved 

We are your beloved
Thank you oh God
We are your beloved 
Thank you God

Written by: Melissa Leveck

God's message is not complicated and it's not exclusive.
His message is free and it's for His beloved.
If you are a sinner than you are His beloved. Because He came to set you free from sin. 

"You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from afar." Psalm 139:2

I am comforted that the Creator knows all things good and bad about me... And He chose to save. I may not know you but I hope that somehow if you haven't considered or fully accepted that Jesus loves you; that you would.
 "That whoever believes in him may have eternal life. "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him. Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe is condemned already, because he has not believed in the name of the only Son of God. (John 3:15-18 ESV)
My prayer is that we would not get caught up in the complicated and sin entangled lies of this world but that this moment we would be apart from our bandages and lead the way to Love :) 

Wednesday, May 29, 2013

Freedom to Eat

    I think its safe to say that we all want some freedom in our lives. Maybe its freedom from responsabililty or freedom from fear. Maybe freedom from ourselves. I know that most of the problem doesnt lie with whatever situation I am facing, but it really has to do with me. I tend to fixate on the objects rather than the reality. If that makes sense? Lets say I'm making a PB&J for lunch but than i start to think about dinner or maybe breakfast for tomorrow...I create this hunger for those meals than rather enjoying the food that is in front of me. I make myself WANT. But do I ENJOY what I have? Why are we so discontent. Why do we want for tomorrow?

  "This is the day that the LORD has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it." Psalm 118:4

 These past couple of months I have been really looking into getting a "better" car. This better car would let me go further in distance without a worry, it would provide more opportunites for "ministry" and it would bring me happiness. My fixation for this vehichle is raging. EVERYTIME i see a Ford Escape 2009 on the fwy... I imagine me driving it. :( and wishing that it was mine. And I am driving my car that the Lord has allowed me to have for the past 7 years, I snap back to reality. I am reminded gently by the Lord that God can use my 19 year old car just as much. How often do we discount the things right in front of and put our HOPE in things we know not of? How often do I think anything else will bring me happiness, but what I'm really searching for is Joy. Do we settle for the "happy" we might get tomorrow or do we rejoice in the "joy" that we've been given today.Unfortunatly i dont know if i will ever fully get it...the concept of being satisfied with the Spiritual rather than the physical. But do I surrender or give in?

  "Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us," Ephesians 3:20

 MY GOD is able. So, lets just rest in that our God is able to do more than we could imagine. And lets step outside of our own plans and ideas of what will bring us happiness and lets rest in the joy that is set before us. Now we have given freedom to eat that fruit in the middle of the garden and we have also been given the promise that God will and is taking care of us...that we only need what He provides. Thank you Jesus for your everlasting and unchanging love. Help me to rest in your truth and to trust in your promises. May we all strive to live this day for you alone. -Amen.

Friday, May 10, 2013

Along came a spider

Out of nowhere this thing, this black creepy object started becoming more clear in the mirror as I finished washing my face. I immediately started to strategize on how i would rid this beast of its life. As I am looking around my bathroom trying to find anything sufficient to kill it before it gets away...or worse attacks me; I get my blow dryer out. Yes, at 1 am i decide that the best method of killing the LARGE(slightly over dramatic)spider on my ceiling is to get out my blow dryer. So I plug that puppy in and point right at it. But nothing...he doesn't fall to the ground because of the intense heat, he cringes for a second and than starts to build its web and retrieve down it. I'm FREAKING out...the spider starts to swing back in forth because of the air from the dryer and all i can think is that it will somehow get on me and kill me. Well, that spider didn't get the best of! I got my axe perfume and started spraying at it...finally the beast falls to the ground and i capture it with a bottle, find a shoe and smack death. and flushed it down the toilet.
 Those brief five minutes were so intense. I had to think quick and not allow it to get out of my sight. When i first saw the spider,fear drifted right in. I allowed this tiny little creature to affect my behavior in a radically insane manner. I chose to give into my fear. Btw, I really hate spiders. "For God has not given us a Spirit of fear, but of power,love and a sound mind." 2 Timothy 1:7 Everyone fears something. Its true, I fear a lot of things for instance, people. Being put outside of my comfort zone, meeting people, singing in front of people, failing. Um...what else...I fear the enemy, i fear the unknown. These are just a few things. But these things if left alone to long can become part of my crutch. If I allow these fears to cease me, than I'm giving up trust in the one who says that He has GIVEN me a spirit of POWER, LOVE, and a SOUND MIND. Are we to hold onto the things that bind us and lead us away from the truth? Truth: Fear has no power over me. Truth: Fear is an indicator of the lack of trust. If i fear the unknown and i believe that God has everything in control and His outcome is best, I am essentially casting out that His ways for me are not true and good. I start to doubt His ability to lead and guide me to the right path.

 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths." Proverbs 3:5-6 

 This verse has been so prevalent in my walk with the Lord, I am constantly being reminded of the words. Sometimes I will read the bible but I don't allow it to be alive. This fear that I hold onto, that controls my behaviors in a radically insane manner, that keeps me from fully experiencing the best and most amazing promises that come directly from the Creator of this universe; if not given to the Lord, will consume me. Don't let that spider(fear) get the best of you. Don't let your fear of the unknown or people or the future scare you away from taking that next step. I am defiantly preaching to myself right now. Give your fear to the Lord and like He promised; He will give you a Spirit of POWER, LOVE and a SOUND MIND>believe it. live it.

 - Mis

Wednesday, May 08, 2013

more soup please?

Today, I went to lunch with my brother and step-dad.I was so hungry by the time we got to the place i was in anticipation to eat this food that looked amazing and sounded amazing and smelled really good. We find a seat outside with the lovely sun touching the table and a slight breeze as we received our order of fish tacos. the sight alone got me wanting more before i even could taste it. And after those two tacos plus some chips were consumed i felt satisfied. I was full. I of course could eat more but i was content with what was given to me.
 Now, I love food. I love to try different foods. I love that when I have an empty stomach my hunt and determination to find something, anything to get rid of this will bring me happiness. I love that feeling of being full. Always of course leaving room for dessert...cause come on who doesn't have a dessert after every meal?! My Physical hunger needs to be met,and If I don't consume something I will starve and eventually die. It is vital to drink plenty of liquid and retain somewhat of a consistent food intake. Your body tells you when you are lacking iron, protein, are constantly in tune with what your body needs and wants and what it can handle. But, how many times do we hunger and thirst after Jesus? No really, how many times do we look at our bibles with big eyes as if we have seen the most delicious, exquisite, most tempting display of a meal. I can't say that i have often. This prized possession, this gift is easily ignored and covered up by other JESUS books and stuff.We fill our hunger with everything else that we don't even have room for the sweet stuff,the extra blessings(dessert) the Lord wants to shower us with. And yet, when I'm hungry for Jesus and I "need" to hear from Him, I open of that thick book and seek to find an answer. Why do we hunger for things that crumble? Why do we settle for second best? Why are we not consuming the LIVING word of GOD momentarily? Why?, because we are content. We are just ok with the food that will only last 4-6 hours or the possessions this world so temptingly offers us. We deny the amazing and settle for the dirt. I love that verse that says " Taste and see that the Lord is good". God is inviting us to be apart of Him, to know Him, to be consumed by Him. What are we waiting for?, for the Lord to speak. Well than read. Be filled. Be full to your hearts content. Be satisfied with His promises and His truths, with His leading and His grace. Be satisfied with His love that never ends and be emptied of yourself. Be still. Just be. Our God's love is simple and profound. It does not require knowledge but acceptance. WE are not going to fully know how much He loves us until we reach heaven but we have been give His love and all we need to do is accept it.

 "Oh Jesus fill me up to amaze and to be amazed that this love would be contagious it would not end here that my heart would thirst for your goodness that my heart would not let go Oh Jesus, my beloved show me in your time the ways that valleys and mountain tops have seen your hand divinely orchestrate a path I could not see to follow the footsteps that lead me to thee. " -me. 

This is something that the Lord has been pressing on my heart to hunger for the spiritual. So be encouraged that Jesus is with you every step of the way and that He isn't finished with you yet.


Tuesday, April 30, 2013


My friend was sharing with me today of how The Lord was clearly showing her through His word some of the plans He has for her and I thought. Wow, what a concept?

"Call to me and I will answer you, and will tell you great and hidden things that you have not known."(Jeremiah 33:3 ESV)

I'm going to paint you a mental picture-
Your sitting at the desk with the phone in your hand and all you hear is that annoying beep beep sound telling you that you haven't dialed the number yet... And until someone else comes into the room seeing if you are off... You realize that you haven't even dialed.
I was reading through some of my old old posts about God providing and showing Himself faithful. I'm always amazed of how God chooses to bless and provide and speak. But have you noticed that in times of heart ache and desperation we seem to be more "in tune" with The Lord. Why is that? I think, because we are not only picking up the phone, but dialing the number, we are in a position of seeking and asking. Then I think man, we have COMPLETE access... No limit on minutes or bad connections and no time frame of when we can reach God...why do we wait for desperate times? It's kinda funny how I will take all my issues that need answer or guidance to everyone first but The Lord. Yet, HE has all the answers. So let's go back to the desk with the phone in hand, and nothing is wrong per say in life all is well and you just start talking to The Lord and you share your heart with HIM and when it seems like you really don't need answers the Lord is showing you his plans.
I ask a lot of questions in my head, not praying but hoping that somehow I will find that answer,that I don't need to dial the number, that I can figure it out on my own.
Until... I am still and quiet do I realize that... Going to Jesus is way better.
I also have figured out. And mind you I a kinda slow...that when I am not in the WORD daily, I'm not building up my armor, I'm not in COMMUNICATION with my Jesus. So how can I get any answers from Him if I haven't even dialed the number? If I haven't even opened my Word?

"I sought the Lord, and he answered me and delivered me from all my fears."(Psalms 34:4 ESV)


25 1/2

I'm 25. A sister to three crazy awesome brothers. A daughter to four parents. And a friend/ sister to the many amazing people I get to serve with at my church. I love being spontaneous. I love laughing and being silly even if it makes me look weird. I wear my emotions on my sleeve and sometimes don't express enough emotions. I have an emotional jar that seems to always overflow without ever being opened. I don't like crying. I work and serve to glorify my Savior.
I'm 25. But I'm not content. Some say to strive for more...pick a career and go for it. Some say to keep serving and great things will happen. I trust that The Lord has complete control and amazing plans for my life. But it's not so easy being content.
I'm 25 and in...I've been single for 25 years. I want kids, a family, another adventure.
So there's a cliff that leads to some adventures and its safe to jump but I'm not sure where it will take me... Do I go for it? Or do I just sit and try to find another way?

Am I even prepared to make that jump...

Monday, April 29, 2013


I'm easily entertained...I could sit at a coffee shop or sit in the middle of the mall and watch people for hours. I love to observe people's behavior. And it's easy to get lost in being the one who looks at others,rather than being the one others are looking at. A few things I notice are the way people communicate with one another and how they dress. We all want to be valued, to be found of worth. But even more than that, to feel wanted. I serve at my church in the high school ministry and I love to set up and tear down...I like serving because it gives me a sense of value. The room needs to be cleaned...therefore I am needed.
Not only in general do we all seek to be valued and found worthy among our peers and family but also by Jesus. I know that any value that I'm looking for besides Jesus will ultimately leave me empty.
I know that we as followers of Christ need to take hold of the position that He has given us... That we are a prized possession. It breaks my heart to see some of my high school girls seek such attention when really they are just lowering their worth.
I struggle with finding myself valuable and worth anything sometimes... But I do know that God loves me and His word is good and true. His Word is what I need to hold onto and seek after. Nothing else matters.
I exhort you to seek out Jesus. He has already proven how valuable you are by taking on your sins and taking them to the cross. Do we not have VICTORY to stand on higher ground- to accept His sacrifice and unfailing love?! YES we do.


Saturday, February 02, 2013


Words are so powerful
They can uplift and move someone
Or tear down and ruin someone.
In either way they reflect our hearts and all that is within,
We can choose to hide behind words or allow the words to express us truthfully.

I have been recently catching up on a popular show called "Downton Abbey", I actually have watched so much of the show that I have started to in my mind speak and think like them.I do not consider my English at all proper, i do envy their Etiquette.

Sometimes I do wish life wasn't so complicated. Simple and sweet.