Tuesday, April 21, 2009


Today I went to school. Came home. Rested cause i was feeling icky and than headed to work. well about an hour before we close this lady comes in and i ask if she needs any help. she asked about the prayer ministry and how she could get some prayer, so i inform her and she proceeds to tell me that she was going in for treatments cause she had some sort of cancer(she did not tell me).While i was putting books away i prayer for her and got her name.

Her name is Mary, around 50 years old and middle eastern. She has cancer and she just needs comfort, encouragement and support from the Lord and Christians. Please pray that the Lord would heal her in His way and that He would provide comfort and love. Thanks !!!


In the middle of the water
on this small boat
drifting away from the shore

pressed to get the other side
distracted by the storm

crashing waves
choppy seas
the boat in the midst
of a battle

no chance of sunlight
darkness surrounds
fear has replaced my peace

"Peace be still" I hear
the words of a man with no fear

quickly i rise to see
its my Jesus, He came to rescue me.

The Lord is sooooo good. Its been hard this semester. I have wanted to give up on life, friendships, ministry and school but the Lord did not give up on me. He gave His strength to go on. I believe that God is doing awesome things this year and even though I'm not sure what He wants to do through me, I do know that He is in control. I just want to rest in His love and not walk away from His promises.

Lord, guide me, show me how I can rest in you. Lord help me to believe in Your promises for my life and fill me with Your Spirit to do Your work. God be glorified through me. Thank You for everything. My Jesus, My daddy, My love thank you.
In Jesus Name, Amen.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

ready to give up. its so tempting.

Jesus be my everything cause i need you so much right now.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

God be glorified. :)

Verse of the day.

"My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness."2 Corinthians 12:9

The most comforting thing is knowing that with God's presence and love I can find rest and peace. No matter how many times I may fail or fall, My Jesus is right there. Giving me strength and encouragement. Oh I love that we can go to Him for all of our needs all the time.

God be glorified. :)

Monday, April 06, 2009


Do you ever want to scream so loud causing the birds to fly far off?
Do you ever want to take your heart and smash it into a million pieces cause then maybe it won't hurt?
Do you ever feel so alone inside that life just does not seem worth it?


Sitting at the lifeguard station letter A, watching the waves crash away
looking at the dark sky, wondering why
if that is what my heart looks like.
yelling in my head
can't seem to make a sound
fighting off the darts
that won't back down.
why is it so hard? I ask too many times
the only glimpse of beauty is shimmering off the sea
making colors mesh so well that it fades into the black
Oh, how long will this go on for? How long will it take, before the sun rises
before the dark goes away.
Its been too long. Its been to far. Too far to reach
Two choices await, as I fall to my knees
wait for the dark to fade or sleep just awhile longer.

Saturday, April 04, 2009

Steps of faith

Tuesday this week was a not so good day. I was tired. Frustrated with myself and in line for the enemy to just throw darts.

And then i came home....within ten minutes my mom is trying to open the door. I asked why she is home...."I got fired"....after those words, I seriously was bitter and angry. Questions in my head of "what are we going to do?, How are we going to make it?,Are we going to have to move?" came rushing to my head.

Even in the hardest times God will provide.
I can say that God has really shown Himself to us. We have been praying as a family more often. God has given us assurance that He will provide for us. My mom even told me that the day she got fired, she had read her devotional and it was on God providing. WOW. We serve a faithful God.

So. with all that. I ask for your prayers as we continue to trust in our BIG God.That my mom would find a job that is local and a blessing. Most of all, that the Lord's will would be upon our family.

I am not sure what next will happen as I serve Him, but I do know that God has it all in His hands.

Thanks and hope ya have a blessed weekend.